I hated my colon
April 6, 2009During my time with ulcerative colitis, I did not have a favorable attitude towards my wayward colon. In fact, I saw my colon as working against my body, not with it.
Keep fighting,
~Dennis
Question: What was/is your attitude towards your colon? Reply to the post!
Hi Dennis,
When I first got diagnosed with UC, my very first and very strong inclination was to save it and take care of it as best I could. I obsessively took care of it like a baby, even blamed myself for getting sick and neglecting it. I believe I did everything to heal it, really could have done no more so when it “turned against me” once again threathening to kill me, I said to the surgeon “get this thing out of me”. Once it was gone, my struggle was over and an overwhelming peace overcame me. I “killed” the enemy before it “killed” me….sounds terrible I know but that is the way it was!
Hi Dennis, I didn’t hate my colon, but I most certainly didn’t like what it was doing. Two years ago during a bad flare up I asked my doctor to have my colon removed. He was against it at the time and asked me to wait till the mercaptopurine kicked in. Since then, when things went bad again, I sometimes said to myself: if they don’t want to take my colon out I might rip it out myself. However, I dreaded surgery so we kept on trying different drugs untill nothing worked any longer. When my colon was finally removed last year my doctor admitted defeat. “We tried everything and we still lost”. I disagreed. In my opinion we had finally won the battle against uc. Funny, how perceptions can vary.